A Hard Life: Friends

I have a hard life sometimes. I have challenges I need to deal with. We all do. And I try not to be selfish.

I just am a very introverted person, and I think it's hard for people to know what to say to me. I am really struggling with that right now. I mean, I try to engage with people, but I feel that people just ignore me, and just say "Whatever", and just move on like they don't really care. Especially teenagers.  And that really hurts inside.

Let me be clear here: This is less a situation with adults. I get along with adults just fine. It's more of teenagers I have a hard time getting along with. Which is weird. I guess teenagers are more self–centered.

This is a real big problem for me, especially at social events. I just came back from a social event, and I felt miserable most of the way home.

I mean, I really do try to talk to people make friends. That's the big thing I'm trying to work on this year. But I feel every conversation you have with teenagers is  they go from one subject to the next, and they don't really give me time to barge in.

Also. having CP is also hard. And that relates. Because of my disability, it makes it hard to keep up with people.

Lastly, I would like to share a poem with you all:

All is lost
There's No Hope For me.
I try to talk,
but people rarely listen,
I fell so lost
like a tree that has no branches

I feel so alone.
Like a lonely stone lying there on the beach
that no one has bothered to pick up.
I feel like no one respects me.
I feel like I should vanish and disappear
But then again,
Once more, I feel the light appear.