Trying to fit in

I got an award last night, and today, I thought people would congratulate me. I thought some of my friends would come up to me and talk to me about it. But no. They did not.

I wish people knew more about me. I wish they knew that I am awesome, and I am talented, and I’m trying not to sound whiny, but I feel like people don’t really talk to me. And the friends that do know me spend a lot of time in the theatre office, so I feel like I don’t talk to anyone during the day. I know we have limited time in the halls because we’re trying to get to our classes on time.

Also, I don’t have any friends in my classes, and that is for two reasons: 1. I spent up till seventh grade at Bigelow, which is in the district, but then for 8th and 9th grade I went to Learning Prep, a school for people with language based learning disabilities, and then I came back to the district and repeated 9th grade at North. That switch put me in an awkward situation when it came to friends. I mean, Learning Prep was ok, because I made progress with my academics, but I was having trouble fitting in when I got back to the district.

Also, I made a poster in graphics and I hung it up the other day on Main Street, and I thought that would get me more attention. I mean, I don’t mean to sound like I’m being selfish and like i’m the only that matters, but i’m trying to get more people to recognize me, and people to not make me feel invisible, because that’s the way I feel now, at that’s not okay.

I must admit: i’m introverted. I’m maybe more introverted than most people, but we’re all trying to fit in, right? I’m trying to be more extroverted and talk to more people, but for example in the cafeteria, it’s too big and too crowded and it’s hard for me to find people to sit with. I’ll keep trying, but it’s hard.

I wish people would recognize me more. Of course they're not ignoring me, but I wish I could have more conversations with friends. Like hanging out after school, you know? But they will take time, unfortunately.